Same Old Thing!!!

Why is breaking-up so painful?? Its like all the energy you put up to know someone has to be used to forget the same person..very tiring job!! And if the person is breaking up with you for no good reason then it becomes more pathetic..you know what I mean!

Next comes the part of "getting over" and "moving on" !! Damn easy job that is!! Especially when the person who breaks up with you is having all the fun in life!!

I have gone through this and am sure many of you guys have too!! I never took it easily, infact I messed it up like shitt!! I would cry every night, act crazily and the worst part was I would literally beg him to come back to me ( Even when I knew he was not interested..How needy could I get!!)

Well its not a strange way to react, am sure any person in that situation would react the same way!!

Its been more than 3years since the break-up, but I still feel bad about what I went through. Its not that I am still crazy about that guy, its just that somewhere my ego was hurt. How could he break-up when it was supposed to be me who should be breaking hearts (Ya ryt!! Like I am some heroine..:|) It sounds funny true but it really did hurt my ego!!

I couldn't take it in a positive way! It always made me think that there was a flaw in me, something not likable!! Something very wrong!

But what I forgot to realize was maybe it had to happen so that I can actually be with that person who I was meant to be with!! Its like God's way of saying "Ok girl!! All the while you took care of him, and now its your turn to be taken care of..:)!!" Well an indirect way of telling me to "get a life". And seriously, I have got my life back!!

So people out there worrying about break-ups, just see it this way, now its your turn to rule!!

An Evening at the Beach!

Have you ever got a feeling that a stranger sitting next to you in a bus or some random person you talk to in a shop might become your companion for the rest of your life?

It was a beautiful sunny afternoon when me and two of my best friends thought of spending sometime in the beach. Well, they have been couples for more than 2yrs now (TouchWood!!) and I thought it would be best to let them spend their quality time on their own. And with this excuse i escaped the horrors of wetting myself in the salt water and got into my favorite past time, Reading!

With warm breeze blowing over my head and the light noise of the waters made me look around. Seeing people of different nationalities, of all kinds of ages and with different backgrounds was very wonderful.

Just then I saw a sweet cute girl (Probably English!) trying to talk to a small Indian kid. Suddenly, I got this feeling, would she ever meet him "By chance" in her life again? Would she ever get the chance to talk to him "again"?

I saw my friends,who are so much in love, happily enjoying in the water, did they ever cross roads in their lives before they met? Or probably for one second did they get the feeling "maybe one day I will meet her/him soon!" I would never really know!!

In the midst of the crowd, I realized it is best to retain this mystery as it is. I mean, if we knew the person we would end up with, or the things we will end up having, where will all the fun in our lives go? In fighting??

Stayin Alive!!

Have you ever got the feeling where at one moment you are really really flying high in the sky, and the next thing you know you are falling right on the sharp edge of a rock!!! If its not a rock it would definitely be a sharp knife!! Like how I feel after reading "Twilight" (when I realize there is no Edward in real life) or when I am all set to go for shopping with my money and right then I get lectures from my parents about "Savings"!!

We all at some point of our life get these feelings, but do you think it should make you stop yourself from dreaming or think beyond your capabilities??

It is a cliche "Sky is the limit" or "Make impossible, possible". We all have heard people talk about these expressions, but do you think "Ya, Maybe I too can make a difference in this life!"

My point is, just because we have a profession/occupation in our lives, does it mean we have reached our goals in life? Or just because you sit at home unemployed (temporarily), do you think you are nowhere near your goals?

It is not at all the end of life! I am employed Yes, but I know that this is not what I am seeking from this world. I want to travel around the world. Being a homesick person, who cannot stand a small change that takes place anywhere around me, I really want to feel the change, to chase all the opportunities in the world.

I had told this to my sister and I would want you all to know, that this is not it. You have all the treasures in the world to get what you want. Enjoy everything you do in life, Dream big!! Try to bring those dreams to reality. Share these moments with the ones you love. Be positive. I know its not that easy, but come on, if you wont even try to put an effort how will that be possible??

Make a difference!! ( I don't want to sound too philosophical, like my friend "koli faez" tells me..:P)